First Weigh In (in almost a month)

Saturday morning I bit the bullet and went and weighed in. Remember I had fallen off the wagon and got back on and I hadn't weighed in since June 22nd. This clinic was really busy when I got there so I had to sit and wait, and as I was waiting the fear of what was to come when I stepped onto that scale was almost overwhelming. Finally the nurse called my name "Heather..let's get you weighed" I slowly rose to my feet and walked to the weigh room. She closed the door and I stood there frozen as the nurse typed in my name in the computer. "It's been a while since you were last here hasn't it" the nurse said. I explained to her I had kind of fallen off. She explained that it happens alot but just by getting up, brushing yourself off, and getting back into the clinic was a step in the right direction.

She then looked at what I was wearing (jeans, t-shirt, tennis shoes) and asked me if I weighed in jeans before. I told her I was usually in sweats and she said that if I wanted to I could take them off because jeans can have an affect on the scale. Not really wanting to weigh in in my underwear I declined but did take off my shoes.

I took a deep breath, stepped up onto the scale and closed my eyes. I only opened them when I heard the nurse say "WOW" Thinking I had put on all the weight I had lost and thensome I opened my eyes and looked at the number. 227.6!! HOLY MOLY! I had lost another 8.6 pounds for a total of almost 16 pounds lost. I was floored. I was in such shock that the nurse asked me if I was alright. I told her I couldn't believe it and even asked her if the scale was working properly. She laughed at me and told me to smile that I had achieved a +5% loss of my initial body weight and I was going to get a goody pack on my next visit.

Honestly I don't feel like I have lost 16 pounds and to me I don't look like I have lost 16 pounds. My pants are loose and I can put my jeans on straight from the dryer without having to suck it in or lay on the bed (YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT) but I just think I felt I would "feel" it more. She told me to hang in there that I would.

So with that...I have shut the door on the 240's and I shut the door on the 230's. I am now working on getting out of the 220's, and I look forward to the day I say good-bye to the 200's and can SLAM that door shut.

Thank you all for the kind words and support..till next time Stay Focused! XOXO

July 1st!

I haven't weighed in this week. I have been a little out of sorts with everything going on in my life. I have daycare problems, husband problems, financial problems, car problems...basically you name it, I have that problem. So I haven't been able to follow my diet as closely as I would like. There have been days where I have barely eaten 500 calories ALL DAY because I have been so stressed out. I haven't pigged out or anything, quite the opposite. I stopped eating for a few days and that is just as bad as pigging out.

So I put off weighing in until next week. However I want to share some successes with you.

Yesterday at work was the last day for several co-workers. Several cakes were brought in and these weren't just any ordinary cakes. They were fancy schmancy yummy looking cakes. People FLOCKED to them to get a slice. In fact, people from other departments were coming over to get a piece. BUT NOT ME! I stayed clear of the cake ALL DAY. I munched on some fresh strawberries that someone has brought in also. I was so proud of myself.

I also walk almost every single night. In fact, I look forward to it. I found this little hidden park that is by my house and I take my son out in his stroller every night. Now we head to the park. They have play structures that are perfect for him and because it is sort of hidden there rarely is anyone there. We both win...I get to exercise and he gets to play..and more often than not as we walk home he falls asleep and is out for the night.

So no weight update to report, but I do want to give a little praise to a friend of mine. I think she follows my blog. This person and I share a first name and we have known each other since Jr. High. She is also embarking on a weight loss journey and she recently hit a huge milestone, she is now under 200 lbs. I am so proud of her. I know it is not easy. So HL...a big congratualtions to you!

Challenges

Every person dieting experiences challenges along the way. Sometimes those challenges are in the form of a holiday that revolves around food. Sometime those challenges are hormonal when you feel like you need to eat an entire box of ice cream or devour the whole chocolate cake. Sometimes those challenges are called a husband or a wife. Whatever the challenges are you have to make the conscious decision of whether you are going to deal with the challenge or succumb to it.

This past week has been a very challenging one for me personally. I am dealing with some issues at home that are very difficult and my diet has been effected. However, I have to say I am proud of myself for how I dealt with it. I didn't go and get Mr. Ice Cream to help soothe my anguish away and Miss Cake wasn't even thought about. Instead, I went for a couple of walks, had a piece of watermelon, chase my son around the yard. Now I wasn't perfect in my choices, I did eat some things that weren't the best for me, but it could have been worse.

Life certainly has its ups and downs and so does a diet, but in the end you have to stick with it. You have to make choices of what food you put into your mouth. If you mess up, accept the guilt and move forward. Don't beat yourself up because you slipped a little.

When I was a kid growing up I had alot of cousins around who we would hang out with quite often. One of my cousins struggled with weight. While I haven't spoke with this person in many many years...in fact we went to the same high school together and yet never spoke to each other. People didn't even know we were related. Kind of sad when I look back on it, but anyway there was a saying that her Mom put onto her fridge that I think about all the time now.

"A Moment on the Lips, Forever on the Hips"

Think about that the next time you are craving that piece of cake or that box of ice cream. It really does put things into perspective.

Happy Dieting Everyone..tomorrow is weigh in for me.