On Saturday when I woke up I told myself I wasn't going to go to the clinic, then I would change my mind, then I would change it again. I didn't want to be discouraged. But I sucked it up and I went. The only thing I lost was the .5 that I gained earlier in the week. So at least the scale didn't go up.
I know I am not eating right and that is probably a big part of the problem. Here it is the end of the month, money is tight so food gets less and less healthy. Thankfully payday is this week.
This week is going to be stressful for me. I start my new position tomorrow. I am nervous. I hope all will go well. I don't know when I will be able to post again since I don't have a computer at home and who knows when I will get time to log back in.
I need good vibes sent my way. I am not a very religious person so I don't ask for prayers. That is why I ask for good vibes. Happy Dieting everyone. Till next time....
Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't lose the weight, I give myself reasons why I can.
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Stupid Scale
Went to the clinic last night to stock up on some food and to do my mid week weigh in. Was in such a great mood when I got there because I have been walking on the treadmill and burning calories and fully expected to see a drop. What did I see instead? .5 GAIN! I was shocked and pissed. The nurse tried to make me feel better by taking my measurements and showing me what I have lost, but I wasn't really hearing her. ALL I could focus on was the .5! Stupid Scale.
She said it was probably water retention and that it was late in the day and it was hot yesterday. Do you think ANY of the mattered to me? NOPE! I have been in a foul mood ever since. Stupid Scale.
Today I am chugging water like crazy and I am going back to the clinic on Saturday morning...if that number doesn't drop watch out, this girl is going to go crazy.
STUPID SCALE!
She said it was probably water retention and that it was late in the day and it was hot yesterday. Do you think ANY of the mattered to me? NOPE! I have been in a foul mood ever since. Stupid Scale.
Today I am chugging water like crazy and I am going back to the clinic on Saturday morning...if that number doesn't drop watch out, this girl is going to go crazy.
STUPID SCALE!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Walking...on a treadmill
This week I have really been focusing on my calorie intake and my excercise. I was complaining to my BFF over the weekend about my belly. It is still big, it is still there and she told me I am going to have to start doing either crunches or sit-ups or something. UGH! I don't know why I have this hatred for working on my abs, I just do. I think one of the reasons I hate it is because my belly gets in the way and makes it hard to actually do a crunch or a sit up and then I feel the strain in my back. It is somewhat painful and very uncomfortable. However, if I want to lose this flab I know I am going to have to incorporate this into life.
However, I finally got my butt into the little workout gym we have here at work. Costs me $5 a month and I can use it as much as I want. Monday I spent my lunch walking on the treadmill and burned over 350 calories in 45 minutes. It felt great. I had energy in the afternoon and didn't get the 2:00 yawn. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill at both my breaks for 15 minutes each burning 133 calories each time AND I went walking downtown for 30 minutes at lunch burning another 140 calories and I felt wonderful. Again, I didn't get that tired feeling I am so used to having in the afternoon. Amazing that just a little bit of exercise will make you feel a whole lot better.
However, I finally got my butt into the little workout gym we have here at work. Costs me $5 a month and I can use it as much as I want. Monday I spent my lunch walking on the treadmill and burned over 350 calories in 45 minutes. It felt great. I had energy in the afternoon and didn't get the 2:00 yawn. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill at both my breaks for 15 minutes each burning 133 calories each time AND I went walking downtown for 30 minutes at lunch burning another 140 calories and I felt wonderful. Again, I didn't get that tired feeling I am so used to having in the afternoon. Amazing that just a little bit of exercise will make you feel a whole lot better.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Another door is firmly shut
26.8 lbs down. WOW, I don't think I have ever lost this much weight before. Yeah, I have 10 lbs here or 5 lbs there, but there was never a siginficiant chunk of weight loss before. It does feel good, but I still look at myself in the mirror and I have my muffin top and big ole belly. My husband says he can see a change in my legs, chest, and waist. I just can't see it..yet.
So how many doors have I closed? I started at 243 on 06/01/11 and since then I have shut the door on the 240's, 230's, AND the 220's. As of Saturday my weight was 216.8. 17lbs to go and I can wave bye bye to the 200's forever. I can't even remember the last time I was under 200. When I met my husband I wore a size 13 and that is the smallest I can ever really remember being.
My next Dr. appointment is on 09/07. I am curious to see where my BMI is now. When I started this I was in the Morbid Obesity category...I hope I have shed that nasty label!
Happy Dieting my friends......
So how many doors have I closed? I started at 243 on 06/01/11 and since then I have shut the door on the 240's, 230's, AND the 220's. As of Saturday my weight was 216.8. 17lbs to go and I can wave bye bye to the 200's forever. I can't even remember the last time I was under 200. When I met my husband I wore a size 13 and that is the smallest I can ever really remember being.
My next Dr. appointment is on 09/07. I am curious to see where my BMI is now. When I started this I was in the Morbid Obesity category...I hope I have shed that nasty label!
Happy Dieting my friends......
Monday, August 15, 2011
New Shirt, New Size
Yesterday my husband and son and I went out to go browsing. I say browsing instead of shopping because money is still so tight in our house. We were up early yesterday so we were at the mall as it opened. First stop was Sears. Haven't been to Sears in such a long time and we were just browsing the clothes. Most of my sons clothes are hand me downs, even his shoes. The few pairs of shoes I have bought for him have been from Wally World (that is what I call Wal-Mart) and rarely costs more than $5. Same for my clothes. I just don't really buy clothes for us. I usually hit up the clearance rack at Wally World and rarely spend more than $5 for anything.
The sizes I have been wearing have been 3x (22-24) shirts and size 20W pants. I like my shirts to cover my butt, always have always will. Well as my weight was creeping up to over 240 lbs my 3x tops were even a little tight.
So yesterday we were in Sears and my husband was looking for a pair of black jeans because he can only wear black jeans at work (side note...holy cow the price of jeans has gone way up. A pair of phony Lee jeans cost almost $30..that is just ridiculous) so I wandered over to the women's dept and I was looking at all the items on clearance trying to search out that $5 deal of the day. My eye kept looking to this other rack of shirts...the ones that weren't on clearance.
Finding nothing on the clearance rack, I finally stop in front of the rack that has the shirt that holds my attention. I start looking at the sizes and I immediately pull the size 22-24 shirt and hold it up to me. I can tell it is going to be too big. I kind of figured that would be the case. I mean you can't lose over 20lbs and not drop a size in shirt. My husband had joined me at this time and told me that he really liked the shirt and that I should get it. It was on sale for $15. I told him no, we didn't have the money and he said I should be rewarded for losing weight. So I said, I will try it on. Maybe just trying it on and seeing what size I wore would make me feel good. So I grabbed the size 18-20 shirt and on a whim also grabbed the 16-18 size shirt and a size 18W pair of pants.
Into the dressing room I go. I take a deep breathe and start removing the clothes I had on. I don't even have to unbutton the jeans I am wearing because I swim in them. I slip the pants on, and they FIT! I was shocked. I mean I haven't been able to put on a size 18 in a long long time, my 20's before were getting tight. Now granted, they didn't look that good. They weren't a real flattering cut for my body, but they buttoned up and they weren't tight and I could breathe.
Next was the shirt. I looked at the 18-20 shirt and I looked at the 16-18 shirt and I opted to try the smaller one on. IT FIT and it LOOKED GOOD! I came running out of the dressing room to show my husband...saying it fits, look it fits. He smiled and told me that I looked really nice. I was doing the happy dance right there in the middle of Sears. It felt so good to wear a shirt that was two sizes smaller.
My husband wouldn't take no for an answer. He got paid on Friday (a whole $90) and said he was going to spend $30 on his family. So he bought me the shirt, Robert Jr. a pair of sandals, and himself a T-shirt. Total spent was $31. While I am not happy about the money spent, it is nice having a new shirt and Robert Jr. loves LOVES his new sandals.
I am wearing my shirt right now, and I love it. Came into work this morning and have already received several compliments on it. One person even said I looked thin.
I am one happy girl this morning! :)
The sizes I have been wearing have been 3x (22-24) shirts and size 20W pants. I like my shirts to cover my butt, always have always will. Well as my weight was creeping up to over 240 lbs my 3x tops were even a little tight.
So yesterday we were in Sears and my husband was looking for a pair of black jeans because he can only wear black jeans at work (side note...holy cow the price of jeans has gone way up. A pair of phony Lee jeans cost almost $30..that is just ridiculous) so I wandered over to the women's dept and I was looking at all the items on clearance trying to search out that $5 deal of the day. My eye kept looking to this other rack of shirts...the ones that weren't on clearance.
Finding nothing on the clearance rack, I finally stop in front of the rack that has the shirt that holds my attention. I start looking at the sizes and I immediately pull the size 22-24 shirt and hold it up to me. I can tell it is going to be too big. I kind of figured that would be the case. I mean you can't lose over 20lbs and not drop a size in shirt. My husband had joined me at this time and told me that he really liked the shirt and that I should get it. It was on sale for $15. I told him no, we didn't have the money and he said I should be rewarded for losing weight. So I said, I will try it on. Maybe just trying it on and seeing what size I wore would make me feel good. So I grabbed the size 18-20 shirt and on a whim also grabbed the 16-18 size shirt and a size 18W pair of pants.
Into the dressing room I go. I take a deep breathe and start removing the clothes I had on. I don't even have to unbutton the jeans I am wearing because I swim in them. I slip the pants on, and they FIT! I was shocked. I mean I haven't been able to put on a size 18 in a long long time, my 20's before were getting tight. Now granted, they didn't look that good. They weren't a real flattering cut for my body, but they buttoned up and they weren't tight and I could breathe.
Next was the shirt. I looked at the 18-20 shirt and I looked at the 16-18 shirt and I opted to try the smaller one on. IT FIT and it LOOKED GOOD! I came running out of the dressing room to show my husband...saying it fits, look it fits. He smiled and told me that I looked really nice. I was doing the happy dance right there in the middle of Sears. It felt so good to wear a shirt that was two sizes smaller.
My husband wouldn't take no for an answer. He got paid on Friday (a whole $90) and said he was going to spend $30 on his family. So he bought me the shirt, Robert Jr. a pair of sandals, and himself a T-shirt. Total spent was $31. While I am not happy about the money spent, it is nice having a new shirt and Robert Jr. loves LOVES his new sandals.
I am wearing my shirt right now, and I love it. Came into work this morning and have already received several compliments on it. One person even said I looked thin.
I am one happy girl this morning! :)
Thursday, August 11, 2011
20 Lbs...Bye Bye
It's Official..I have lost 20 lbs. I can't tell you how excited I am. The new meds the Dr. put me on has made a huge difference.
I went to the foot doc yesterday because my feet have been hurting me so bad. I haven't been able to go walking or anything. It is all I can do to just get around. I received two VERY VERY painful cortisone shots in my heels and this morning I can tell a difference. The shots should last a couple of weeks and hopefully my new shoe inserts will be ready by then.
So what does that mean? I am going walking tonight. I haven't been in a while and I really miss it. I think my son misses it too. This was our time together and more often than not he would fall asleep as we walked home and I would just put him in bed and he would sleep all night.
So my official weight is 223. 4 more pounds to go and I can slam the door shut on the 220's and focus on leaving the 200's behind for good.
I wonder if I am close to being out of the morbid obesity category? That would be awesome!!
I went to the foot doc yesterday because my feet have been hurting me so bad. I haven't been able to go walking or anything. It is all I can do to just get around. I received two VERY VERY painful cortisone shots in my heels and this morning I can tell a difference. The shots should last a couple of weeks and hopefully my new shoe inserts will be ready by then.
So what does that mean? I am going walking tonight. I haven't been in a while and I really miss it. I think my son misses it too. This was our time together and more often than not he would fall asleep as we walked home and I would just put him in bed and he would sleep all night.
So my official weight is 223. 4 more pounds to go and I can slam the door shut on the 220's and focus on leaving the 200's behind for good.
I wonder if I am close to being out of the morbid obesity category? That would be awesome!!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Todays Weigh In
I just went into the medical center and weighed in. I love Nurse Shirley, she is my favorite.
I had a -1.6lb loss for a total of -17.1!! Excuse me for a minute while I do the happy dance.......
I am so happy I am back on track. I am starting to see a difference and to feel a difference!
I LOVE LOSING WEIGHT!
I had a -1.6lb loss for a total of -17.1!! Excuse me for a minute while I do the happy dance.......
I am so happy I am back on track. I am starting to see a difference and to feel a difference!
I LOVE LOSING WEIGHT!
Salem Oregon Weight Loss Support
I am trying to start up a support group here in Salem Oregon for all those trying to lose weight. Please find me on facebook and add me as your friend. My name is Heather Perez Martin. Then like my page and let's build this support group up!!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Meds
Holy Moly! Doc put me on new meds...Phentermine. This little tiny pill takes away the appetite, the cravings, everything. I am AMAZED!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
I just want to bury my head in the sand
When I started my diet I was so gung-ho. I dropped 16 pounds quickly and easily. I can't seem to get back into my routine, something always derails me. I can't continue to let this happen. I have invested too much time and energy and MONEY to go backwards.
I don't have a plan, I don't know what to do. I have new meds that I think I am a little scared to take, but tomorrow I plan on taking one. I mean I am under Dr. supervision, what the F am I scared about? Seriously, I am pathetic. One excuse after the other.
I am an accountant. I sit on my fat ass all day long manipulating numbers into a computer. I work on the 3rd floor of my building and I try to take the stairs as much as possible, I park far away and since I have to move my car every two hours or Mr. Parking Nazi will ticket me (again) I do get some exercise during the day.
Here is one of my problems, I have sever plantar fasciatis in BOTH my feet and I can barely walk sometimes. I go back to the foot doc next week and I am hoping some pain can be alleviated. In the meantime I just deal with it.
But how do I deal with my food choices? I am the only one I can blame for my failure this past weekend which has now stretched into Tuesday! I need to refocus, I need to stay motivated..I need to go back to doing all the stuff I was doing a couple of weeks ago.
I am only allowed 1320 calories a day..I get hungry, I get in moods. Maybe that is why I need to take my meds. I need a better mood.
OK, here is a promise to myself. Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my medicine, eat my healthy breakfast and start anew. I will not fail, I will not make excuses. I CAN and I WILL lose this weight.
I don't have a plan, I don't know what to do. I have new meds that I think I am a little scared to take, but tomorrow I plan on taking one. I mean I am under Dr. supervision, what the F am I scared about? Seriously, I am pathetic. One excuse after the other.
I am an accountant. I sit on my fat ass all day long manipulating numbers into a computer. I work on the 3rd floor of my building and I try to take the stairs as much as possible, I park far away and since I have to move my car every two hours or Mr. Parking Nazi will ticket me (again) I do get some exercise during the day.
Here is one of my problems, I have sever plantar fasciatis in BOTH my feet and I can barely walk sometimes. I go back to the foot doc next week and I am hoping some pain can be alleviated. In the meantime I just deal with it.
But how do I deal with my food choices? I am the only one I can blame for my failure this past weekend which has now stretched into Tuesday! I need to refocus, I need to stay motivated..I need to go back to doing all the stuff I was doing a couple of weeks ago.
I am only allowed 1320 calories a day..I get hungry, I get in moods. Maybe that is why I need to take my meds. I need a better mood.
OK, here is a promise to myself. Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my medicine, eat my healthy breakfast and start anew. I will not fail, I will not make excuses. I CAN and I WILL lose this weight.
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