LOL, I just posted my other blog and forgot to mention..that at my last clinic appointment it is official I AM NO LONGER MORBIDLY OBESE! WOOOHOOO..
Yes it still sucks being in the obese category, but hey not being called morbidly obese is pretty cool.
Ok, that was all...
Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't lose the weight, I give myself reasons why I can.
Monday, September 26, 2011
No new info to report...but
I am still being faithful to myself and posting in my blog. I haven't been to the clinic in a week. I typically go on Saturdays but this past Saturday they were closed, so I am going to wait until this next Saturday.
I am doing really good during the week and ok on the weekends. This past weekend was my wedding anniversary and hubby surprised me with a trip to Joe's Crab Shack. I ate what I wanted, but what I ate wasn't so bad. I had CRAB, and LOT's of it, and peel and eat shrimp. I ate a little bit of the corn on the cob, but no potatoes, no alchohol, and no dessert. So the biggest no no I did was dip my crab in butter. So, it could have been worse, and it tasted so fricken GOOD! So my thought it, if I gained a pound or two it was well worth it!
Earlier today I was looking at myself in the mirror in the bathroom (full length mirror) and I was looking at my butt. I have on a pair of black pants I wear to work quite often. My pants are pretty loose now, and my butt looks saggy. It made me laugh.
Hope you all have a great week and Happy Dieting!
XOXO
I am doing really good during the week and ok on the weekends. This past weekend was my wedding anniversary and hubby surprised me with a trip to Joe's Crab Shack. I ate what I wanted, but what I ate wasn't so bad. I had CRAB, and LOT's of it, and peel and eat shrimp. I ate a little bit of the corn on the cob, but no potatoes, no alchohol, and no dessert. So the biggest no no I did was dip my crab in butter. So, it could have been worse, and it tasted so fricken GOOD! So my thought it, if I gained a pound or two it was well worth it!
Earlier today I was looking at myself in the mirror in the bathroom (full length mirror) and I was looking at my butt. I have on a pair of black pants I wear to work quite often. My pants are pretty loose now, and my butt looks saggy. It made me laugh.
Hope you all have a great week and Happy Dieting!
XOXO
Thursday, September 22, 2011
How I am doing...
Last week or week before I posted I was back, and then I disappeared again. LOL, my new job doesn't allow me the freedom like I once had. That is ok though, because I am loving my new position. There still is stress, but on a different level, a level that I can manage. When I leave work at night I can leave everything behind and not have to think about it anymore until I get here in the morning. That is so refreshing.
I am doing great on my diet. Last week I weighed in and was a 216.2 which was a new low for me. :) I have purchased some smaller new jeans and have put away the larger size ones in the back of the closet. I don't know why, I am just not ready to part with them yet. I think it is because when I have lost a certain amount I want to take a picture of the new me in my old jeans.
I also am wearing just regular XL shirts. No more plus sizes, 1x, 2x, or 3x do I have to buy. I was a little shocked about this. I went to Goodwill to take some stuff in and I ended up browsing the clothes. Before I started this new life, I was wearing a 3x top. So I fiugred 1x would be a good size to try on. I found some tops that were cute and I went to try them on and I was shocked that they were so big. So for the first time in a long long time, I went to the regular sizes and picked out two tops that were just regular XL and holy moly they fit. I bought them, I couldn't help it. :)
I wore one of the tops yesterday with my new smaller jeans to work and quite a few people took notice. I heard "are you getting skinny", "you look great", to some people even nicknaming me "skinny". It feels wonderful! All my life I have been overweight, and I have never been called skinny before. Now I know that at 216 lbs, I am no where near skinny, but my hard work is being noticed.
I am having family visit me at the end of October. They haven't seen me since April and I know they are going to be shocked when they finally see me. I hope by that time I will be under 200! I am working hard to acheive that goal. They ask for pictures all the time and the only thing they have seen is my face. I can't wait to see the look on their face when they see the rest of me.
Anyway, hope all of you out there are doing well. I have missed blogging and it feels good to get this out there.
Till next time...Happy Dieting!
I am doing great on my diet. Last week I weighed in and was a 216.2 which was a new low for me. :) I have purchased some smaller new jeans and have put away the larger size ones in the back of the closet. I don't know why, I am just not ready to part with them yet. I think it is because when I have lost a certain amount I want to take a picture of the new me in my old jeans.
I also am wearing just regular XL shirts. No more plus sizes, 1x, 2x, or 3x do I have to buy. I was a little shocked about this. I went to Goodwill to take some stuff in and I ended up browsing the clothes. Before I started this new life, I was wearing a 3x top. So I fiugred 1x would be a good size to try on. I found some tops that were cute and I went to try them on and I was shocked that they were so big. So for the first time in a long long time, I went to the regular sizes and picked out two tops that were just regular XL and holy moly they fit. I bought them, I couldn't help it. :)
I wore one of the tops yesterday with my new smaller jeans to work and quite a few people took notice. I heard "are you getting skinny", "you look great", to some people even nicknaming me "skinny". It feels wonderful! All my life I have been overweight, and I have never been called skinny before. Now I know that at 216 lbs, I am no where near skinny, but my hard work is being noticed.
I am having family visit me at the end of October. They haven't seen me since April and I know they are going to be shocked when they finally see me. I hope by that time I will be under 200! I am working hard to acheive that goal. They ask for pictures all the time and the only thing they have seen is my face. I can't wait to see the look on their face when they see the rest of me.
Anyway, hope all of you out there are doing well. I have missed blogging and it feels good to get this out there.
Till next time...Happy Dieting!
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
I am back...
and I have missed blogging. I am actually in a class right now on break but just wanted to pop in and say hi. Hope all is doing well. I have a appointment with the Dr. tomorrow so I will update my progress, but I know I have gained (2 lbs) and am doing everything to get back on track. I started a new job and life has been crazy. Till tomorrow.......happy dieting!
Sunday, August 28, 2011
I am in desperate need of good vibes!!
On Saturday when I woke up I told myself I wasn't going to go to the clinic, then I would change my mind, then I would change it again. I didn't want to be discouraged. But I sucked it up and I went. The only thing I lost was the .5 that I gained earlier in the week. So at least the scale didn't go up.
I know I am not eating right and that is probably a big part of the problem. Here it is the end of the month, money is tight so food gets less and less healthy. Thankfully payday is this week.
This week is going to be stressful for me. I start my new position tomorrow. I am nervous. I hope all will go well. I don't know when I will be able to post again since I don't have a computer at home and who knows when I will get time to log back in.
I need good vibes sent my way. I am not a very religious person so I don't ask for prayers. That is why I ask for good vibes. Happy Dieting everyone. Till next time....
I know I am not eating right and that is probably a big part of the problem. Here it is the end of the month, money is tight so food gets less and less healthy. Thankfully payday is this week.
This week is going to be stressful for me. I start my new position tomorrow. I am nervous. I hope all will go well. I don't know when I will be able to post again since I don't have a computer at home and who knows when I will get time to log back in.
I need good vibes sent my way. I am not a very religious person so I don't ask for prayers. That is why I ask for good vibes. Happy Dieting everyone. Till next time....
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Stupid Scale
Went to the clinic last night to stock up on some food and to do my mid week weigh in. Was in such a great mood when I got there because I have been walking on the treadmill and burning calories and fully expected to see a drop. What did I see instead? .5 GAIN! I was shocked and pissed. The nurse tried to make me feel better by taking my measurements and showing me what I have lost, but I wasn't really hearing her. ALL I could focus on was the .5! Stupid Scale.
She said it was probably water retention and that it was late in the day and it was hot yesterday. Do you think ANY of the mattered to me? NOPE! I have been in a foul mood ever since. Stupid Scale.
Today I am chugging water like crazy and I am going back to the clinic on Saturday morning...if that number doesn't drop watch out, this girl is going to go crazy.
STUPID SCALE!
She said it was probably water retention and that it was late in the day and it was hot yesterday. Do you think ANY of the mattered to me? NOPE! I have been in a foul mood ever since. Stupid Scale.
Today I am chugging water like crazy and I am going back to the clinic on Saturday morning...if that number doesn't drop watch out, this girl is going to go crazy.
STUPID SCALE!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Walking...on a treadmill
This week I have really been focusing on my calorie intake and my excercise. I was complaining to my BFF over the weekend about my belly. It is still big, it is still there and she told me I am going to have to start doing either crunches or sit-ups or something. UGH! I don't know why I have this hatred for working on my abs, I just do. I think one of the reasons I hate it is because my belly gets in the way and makes it hard to actually do a crunch or a sit up and then I feel the strain in my back. It is somewhat painful and very uncomfortable. However, if I want to lose this flab I know I am going to have to incorporate this into life.
However, I finally got my butt into the little workout gym we have here at work. Costs me $5 a month and I can use it as much as I want. Monday I spent my lunch walking on the treadmill and burned over 350 calories in 45 minutes. It felt great. I had energy in the afternoon and didn't get the 2:00 yawn. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill at both my breaks for 15 minutes each burning 133 calories each time AND I went walking downtown for 30 minutes at lunch burning another 140 calories and I felt wonderful. Again, I didn't get that tired feeling I am so used to having in the afternoon. Amazing that just a little bit of exercise will make you feel a whole lot better.
However, I finally got my butt into the little workout gym we have here at work. Costs me $5 a month and I can use it as much as I want. Monday I spent my lunch walking on the treadmill and burned over 350 calories in 45 minutes. It felt great. I had energy in the afternoon and didn't get the 2:00 yawn. Yesterday I walked on the treadmill at both my breaks for 15 minutes each burning 133 calories each time AND I went walking downtown for 30 minutes at lunch burning another 140 calories and I felt wonderful. Again, I didn't get that tired feeling I am so used to having in the afternoon. Amazing that just a little bit of exercise will make you feel a whole lot better.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Another door is firmly shut
26.8 lbs down. WOW, I don't think I have ever lost this much weight before. Yeah, I have 10 lbs here or 5 lbs there, but there was never a siginficiant chunk of weight loss before. It does feel good, but I still look at myself in the mirror and I have my muffin top and big ole belly. My husband says he can see a change in my legs, chest, and waist. I just can't see it..yet.
So how many doors have I closed? I started at 243 on 06/01/11 and since then I have shut the door on the 240's, 230's, AND the 220's. As of Saturday my weight was 216.8. 17lbs to go and I can wave bye bye to the 200's forever. I can't even remember the last time I was under 200. When I met my husband I wore a size 13 and that is the smallest I can ever really remember being.
My next Dr. appointment is on 09/07. I am curious to see where my BMI is now. When I started this I was in the Morbid Obesity category...I hope I have shed that nasty label!
Happy Dieting my friends......
So how many doors have I closed? I started at 243 on 06/01/11 and since then I have shut the door on the 240's, 230's, AND the 220's. As of Saturday my weight was 216.8. 17lbs to go and I can wave bye bye to the 200's forever. I can't even remember the last time I was under 200. When I met my husband I wore a size 13 and that is the smallest I can ever really remember being.
My next Dr. appointment is on 09/07. I am curious to see where my BMI is now. When I started this I was in the Morbid Obesity category...I hope I have shed that nasty label!
Happy Dieting my friends......
Monday, August 15, 2011
New Shirt, New Size
Yesterday my husband and son and I went out to go browsing. I say browsing instead of shopping because money is still so tight in our house. We were up early yesterday so we were at the mall as it opened. First stop was Sears. Haven't been to Sears in such a long time and we were just browsing the clothes. Most of my sons clothes are hand me downs, even his shoes. The few pairs of shoes I have bought for him have been from Wally World (that is what I call Wal-Mart) and rarely costs more than $5. Same for my clothes. I just don't really buy clothes for us. I usually hit up the clearance rack at Wally World and rarely spend more than $5 for anything.
The sizes I have been wearing have been 3x (22-24) shirts and size 20W pants. I like my shirts to cover my butt, always have always will. Well as my weight was creeping up to over 240 lbs my 3x tops were even a little tight.
So yesterday we were in Sears and my husband was looking for a pair of black jeans because he can only wear black jeans at work (side note...holy cow the price of jeans has gone way up. A pair of phony Lee jeans cost almost $30..that is just ridiculous) so I wandered over to the women's dept and I was looking at all the items on clearance trying to search out that $5 deal of the day. My eye kept looking to this other rack of shirts...the ones that weren't on clearance.
Finding nothing on the clearance rack, I finally stop in front of the rack that has the shirt that holds my attention. I start looking at the sizes and I immediately pull the size 22-24 shirt and hold it up to me. I can tell it is going to be too big. I kind of figured that would be the case. I mean you can't lose over 20lbs and not drop a size in shirt. My husband had joined me at this time and told me that he really liked the shirt and that I should get it. It was on sale for $15. I told him no, we didn't have the money and he said I should be rewarded for losing weight. So I said, I will try it on. Maybe just trying it on and seeing what size I wore would make me feel good. So I grabbed the size 18-20 shirt and on a whim also grabbed the 16-18 size shirt and a size 18W pair of pants.
Into the dressing room I go. I take a deep breathe and start removing the clothes I had on. I don't even have to unbutton the jeans I am wearing because I swim in them. I slip the pants on, and they FIT! I was shocked. I mean I haven't been able to put on a size 18 in a long long time, my 20's before were getting tight. Now granted, they didn't look that good. They weren't a real flattering cut for my body, but they buttoned up and they weren't tight and I could breathe.
Next was the shirt. I looked at the 18-20 shirt and I looked at the 16-18 shirt and I opted to try the smaller one on. IT FIT and it LOOKED GOOD! I came running out of the dressing room to show my husband...saying it fits, look it fits. He smiled and told me that I looked really nice. I was doing the happy dance right there in the middle of Sears. It felt so good to wear a shirt that was two sizes smaller.
My husband wouldn't take no for an answer. He got paid on Friday (a whole $90) and said he was going to spend $30 on his family. So he bought me the shirt, Robert Jr. a pair of sandals, and himself a T-shirt. Total spent was $31. While I am not happy about the money spent, it is nice having a new shirt and Robert Jr. loves LOVES his new sandals.
I am wearing my shirt right now, and I love it. Came into work this morning and have already received several compliments on it. One person even said I looked thin.
I am one happy girl this morning! :)
The sizes I have been wearing have been 3x (22-24) shirts and size 20W pants. I like my shirts to cover my butt, always have always will. Well as my weight was creeping up to over 240 lbs my 3x tops were even a little tight.
So yesterday we were in Sears and my husband was looking for a pair of black jeans because he can only wear black jeans at work (side note...holy cow the price of jeans has gone way up. A pair of phony Lee jeans cost almost $30..that is just ridiculous) so I wandered over to the women's dept and I was looking at all the items on clearance trying to search out that $5 deal of the day. My eye kept looking to this other rack of shirts...the ones that weren't on clearance.
Finding nothing on the clearance rack, I finally stop in front of the rack that has the shirt that holds my attention. I start looking at the sizes and I immediately pull the size 22-24 shirt and hold it up to me. I can tell it is going to be too big. I kind of figured that would be the case. I mean you can't lose over 20lbs and not drop a size in shirt. My husband had joined me at this time and told me that he really liked the shirt and that I should get it. It was on sale for $15. I told him no, we didn't have the money and he said I should be rewarded for losing weight. So I said, I will try it on. Maybe just trying it on and seeing what size I wore would make me feel good. So I grabbed the size 18-20 shirt and on a whim also grabbed the 16-18 size shirt and a size 18W pair of pants.
Into the dressing room I go. I take a deep breathe and start removing the clothes I had on. I don't even have to unbutton the jeans I am wearing because I swim in them. I slip the pants on, and they FIT! I was shocked. I mean I haven't been able to put on a size 18 in a long long time, my 20's before were getting tight. Now granted, they didn't look that good. They weren't a real flattering cut for my body, but they buttoned up and they weren't tight and I could breathe.
Next was the shirt. I looked at the 18-20 shirt and I looked at the 16-18 shirt and I opted to try the smaller one on. IT FIT and it LOOKED GOOD! I came running out of the dressing room to show my husband...saying it fits, look it fits. He smiled and told me that I looked really nice. I was doing the happy dance right there in the middle of Sears. It felt so good to wear a shirt that was two sizes smaller.
My husband wouldn't take no for an answer. He got paid on Friday (a whole $90) and said he was going to spend $30 on his family. So he bought me the shirt, Robert Jr. a pair of sandals, and himself a T-shirt. Total spent was $31. While I am not happy about the money spent, it is nice having a new shirt and Robert Jr. loves LOVES his new sandals.
I am wearing my shirt right now, and I love it. Came into work this morning and have already received several compliments on it. One person even said I looked thin.
I am one happy girl this morning! :)
Thursday, August 11, 2011
20 Lbs...Bye Bye
It's Official..I have lost 20 lbs. I can't tell you how excited I am. The new meds the Dr. put me on has made a huge difference.
I went to the foot doc yesterday because my feet have been hurting me so bad. I haven't been able to go walking or anything. It is all I can do to just get around. I received two VERY VERY painful cortisone shots in my heels and this morning I can tell a difference. The shots should last a couple of weeks and hopefully my new shoe inserts will be ready by then.
So what does that mean? I am going walking tonight. I haven't been in a while and I really miss it. I think my son misses it too. This was our time together and more often than not he would fall asleep as we walked home and I would just put him in bed and he would sleep all night.
So my official weight is 223. 4 more pounds to go and I can slam the door shut on the 220's and focus on leaving the 200's behind for good.
I wonder if I am close to being out of the morbid obesity category? That would be awesome!!
I went to the foot doc yesterday because my feet have been hurting me so bad. I haven't been able to go walking or anything. It is all I can do to just get around. I received two VERY VERY painful cortisone shots in my heels and this morning I can tell a difference. The shots should last a couple of weeks and hopefully my new shoe inserts will be ready by then.
So what does that mean? I am going walking tonight. I haven't been in a while and I really miss it. I think my son misses it too. This was our time together and more often than not he would fall asleep as we walked home and I would just put him in bed and he would sleep all night.
So my official weight is 223. 4 more pounds to go and I can slam the door shut on the 220's and focus on leaving the 200's behind for good.
I wonder if I am close to being out of the morbid obesity category? That would be awesome!!
Friday, August 5, 2011
Todays Weigh In
I just went into the medical center and weighed in. I love Nurse Shirley, she is my favorite.
I had a -1.6lb loss for a total of -17.1!! Excuse me for a minute while I do the happy dance.......
I am so happy I am back on track. I am starting to see a difference and to feel a difference!
I LOVE LOSING WEIGHT!
I had a -1.6lb loss for a total of -17.1!! Excuse me for a minute while I do the happy dance.......
I am so happy I am back on track. I am starting to see a difference and to feel a difference!
I LOVE LOSING WEIGHT!
Salem Oregon Weight Loss Support
I am trying to start up a support group here in Salem Oregon for all those trying to lose weight. Please find me on facebook and add me as your friend. My name is Heather Perez Martin. Then like my page and let's build this support group up!!
Thursday, August 4, 2011
Meds
Holy Moly! Doc put me on new meds...Phentermine. This little tiny pill takes away the appetite, the cravings, everything. I am AMAZED!
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
I just want to bury my head in the sand
When I started my diet I was so gung-ho. I dropped 16 pounds quickly and easily. I can't seem to get back into my routine, something always derails me. I can't continue to let this happen. I have invested too much time and energy and MONEY to go backwards.
I don't have a plan, I don't know what to do. I have new meds that I think I am a little scared to take, but tomorrow I plan on taking one. I mean I am under Dr. supervision, what the F am I scared about? Seriously, I am pathetic. One excuse after the other.
I am an accountant. I sit on my fat ass all day long manipulating numbers into a computer. I work on the 3rd floor of my building and I try to take the stairs as much as possible, I park far away and since I have to move my car every two hours or Mr. Parking Nazi will ticket me (again) I do get some exercise during the day.
Here is one of my problems, I have sever plantar fasciatis in BOTH my feet and I can barely walk sometimes. I go back to the foot doc next week and I am hoping some pain can be alleviated. In the meantime I just deal with it.
But how do I deal with my food choices? I am the only one I can blame for my failure this past weekend which has now stretched into Tuesday! I need to refocus, I need to stay motivated..I need to go back to doing all the stuff I was doing a couple of weeks ago.
I am only allowed 1320 calories a day..I get hungry, I get in moods. Maybe that is why I need to take my meds. I need a better mood.
OK, here is a promise to myself. Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my medicine, eat my healthy breakfast and start anew. I will not fail, I will not make excuses. I CAN and I WILL lose this weight.
I don't have a plan, I don't know what to do. I have new meds that I think I am a little scared to take, but tomorrow I plan on taking one. I mean I am under Dr. supervision, what the F am I scared about? Seriously, I am pathetic. One excuse after the other.
I am an accountant. I sit on my fat ass all day long manipulating numbers into a computer. I work on the 3rd floor of my building and I try to take the stairs as much as possible, I park far away and since I have to move my car every two hours or Mr. Parking Nazi will ticket me (again) I do get some exercise during the day.
Here is one of my problems, I have sever plantar fasciatis in BOTH my feet and I can barely walk sometimes. I go back to the foot doc next week and I am hoping some pain can be alleviated. In the meantime I just deal with it.
But how do I deal with my food choices? I am the only one I can blame for my failure this past weekend which has now stretched into Tuesday! I need to refocus, I need to stay motivated..I need to go back to doing all the stuff I was doing a couple of weeks ago.
I am only allowed 1320 calories a day..I get hungry, I get in moods. Maybe that is why I need to take my meds. I need a better mood.
OK, here is a promise to myself. Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my medicine, eat my healthy breakfast and start anew. I will not fail, I will not make excuses. I CAN and I WILL lose this weight.
Monday, July 25, 2011
Maintaining.....UGH
Well the one thing about being a woman is once a month we get bitchy, bloaty, and all around unhappy. That happened to me this weekend. I knew from past experience I wasn't going to post a loss for this week. As I was snuggled under the covers on Saturday morning I was trying to convince myself it would be a waste of time to go weigh in.
Here is how the good vs evil was playing out in my head...
Evil: "You aren't going to lose, you are bloated, just look at your feet"
Good: "It doesn't matter, you need your B-12 shot and you need to stay accountable"
Evil: "Just weigh in next week after this week is over and your body will be back to normal"
Good: "Get your ASS out of bed now and go weigh in"
So, I got up..took a quick shower, brushed my teeth...and headed out the door. The clinic opened at 9am and I was on the scale at 9:13.
Results...I didn't lose nor did I gain! AWESOME! Had my monthly visitor not appeared, I would have probably had a little bit of a loss.
I am glad GOOD won and I weighed in and got my shot.
I have some new followers to my blog and I want to welcome them. I still haven't figured out how to comment back to those who leave me comments..but I do want to recognize them and let them know I know they are here and let them know I am rooting for their success.
It is so nice to know that I am not alone on this weight loss journey. It is inspiring to see how others are doing and how they are handling their diets along with the stress that life throws at us. Keep up the good work everyone!
Here is how the good vs evil was playing out in my head...
Evil: "You aren't going to lose, you are bloated, just look at your feet"
Good: "It doesn't matter, you need your B-12 shot and you need to stay accountable"
Evil: "Just weigh in next week after this week is over and your body will be back to normal"
Good: "Get your ASS out of bed now and go weigh in"
So, I got up..took a quick shower, brushed my teeth...and headed out the door. The clinic opened at 9am and I was on the scale at 9:13.
Results...I didn't lose nor did I gain! AWESOME! Had my monthly visitor not appeared, I would have probably had a little bit of a loss.
I am glad GOOD won and I weighed in and got my shot.
I have some new followers to my blog and I want to welcome them. I still haven't figured out how to comment back to those who leave me comments..but I do want to recognize them and let them know I know they are here and let them know I am rooting for their success.
It is so nice to know that I am not alone on this weight loss journey. It is inspiring to see how others are doing and how they are handling their diets along with the stress that life throws at us. Keep up the good work everyone!
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Monthly Check-Up
So today was my monthly check up with the clinic Dr. I have lost 5 inches in my waist, still down 15.7 pounds, have lost mostly body fat, and am almost out of the "morbid obesity" category.
I must say...
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!
I must say...
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!
Monday, July 18, 2011
First Weigh In (in almost a month)
Saturday morning I bit the bullet and went and weighed in. Remember I had fallen off the wagon and got back on and I hadn't weighed in since June 22nd. This clinic was really busy when I got there so I had to sit and wait, and as I was waiting the fear of what was to come when I stepped onto that scale was almost overwhelming. Finally the nurse called my name "Heather..let's get you weighed" I slowly rose to my feet and walked to the weigh room. She closed the door and I stood there frozen as the nurse typed in my name in the computer. "It's been a while since you were last here hasn't it" the nurse said. I explained to her I had kind of fallen off. She explained that it happens alot but just by getting up, brushing yourself off, and getting back into the clinic was a step in the right direction.
She then looked at what I was wearing (jeans, t-shirt, tennis shoes) and asked me if I weighed in jeans before. I told her I was usually in sweats and she said that if I wanted to I could take them off because jeans can have an affect on the scale. Not really wanting to weigh in in my underwear I declined but did take off my shoes.
I took a deep breath, stepped up onto the scale and closed my eyes. I only opened them when I heard the nurse say "WOW" Thinking I had put on all the weight I had lost and thensome I opened my eyes and looked at the number. 227.6!! HOLY MOLY! I had lost another 8.6 pounds for a total of almost 16 pounds lost. I was floored. I was in such shock that the nurse asked me if I was alright. I told her I couldn't believe it and even asked her if the scale was working properly. She laughed at me and told me to smile that I had achieved a +5% loss of my initial body weight and I was going to get a goody pack on my next visit.
Honestly I don't feel like I have lost 16 pounds and to me I don't look like I have lost 16 pounds. My pants are loose and I can put my jeans on straight from the dryer without having to suck it in or lay on the bed (YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT) but I just think I felt I would "feel" it more. She told me to hang in there that I would.
So with that...I have shut the door on the 240's and I shut the door on the 230's. I am now working on getting out of the 220's, and I look forward to the day I say good-bye to the 200's and can SLAM that door shut.
Thank you all for the kind words and support..till next time Stay Focused! XOXO
She then looked at what I was wearing (jeans, t-shirt, tennis shoes) and asked me if I weighed in jeans before. I told her I was usually in sweats and she said that if I wanted to I could take them off because jeans can have an affect on the scale. Not really wanting to weigh in in my underwear I declined but did take off my shoes.
I took a deep breath, stepped up onto the scale and closed my eyes. I only opened them when I heard the nurse say "WOW" Thinking I had put on all the weight I had lost and thensome I opened my eyes and looked at the number. 227.6!! HOLY MOLY! I had lost another 8.6 pounds for a total of almost 16 pounds lost. I was floored. I was in such shock that the nurse asked me if I was alright. I told her I couldn't believe it and even asked her if the scale was working properly. She laughed at me and told me to smile that I had achieved a +5% loss of my initial body weight and I was going to get a goody pack on my next visit.
Honestly I don't feel like I have lost 16 pounds and to me I don't look like I have lost 16 pounds. My pants are loose and I can put my jeans on straight from the dryer without having to suck it in or lay on the bed (YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT) but I just think I felt I would "feel" it more. She told me to hang in there that I would.
So with that...I have shut the door on the 240's and I shut the door on the 230's. I am now working on getting out of the 220's, and I look forward to the day I say good-bye to the 200's and can SLAM that door shut.
Thank you all for the kind words and support..till next time Stay Focused! XOXO
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Falling off the wagon....
So when you notice that someone isn't posting to their blog like they used to, especially about weight loss it is most likely because they fell off the wagon. That is what happened to me. I fell off and I fell hard. I haven't weighed in, I haven't been walking, etc. While I have reasons for doing all this, every reason is just an excuse.
However, I am determined to get back on. I have mentioned in the past I am struggling with finances. Getting paid only once a month is so hard and my husbands unemployment doesn't do much except help pay for gas for the week. We are down to one car as my car broke down and we can't afford to get it fixed. So eating healthy costs money, so I have had to cut way back on buying certain things in the grocery store and just buy the bare necessities like Milk, Bread, Eggs, etc. I can't afford the higher priced fruits and the fish. I stocked up on tuna though! :)
So this makes trying to eat healthy a challenge, but I am trying. One of my very dear friends who I have know since I was 12 or 13 years old is struggling too. She got in touch with me and told me about this website called myfitnesspal.com
One of the most important things in weight loss is writing down everything you put in your mouth, and I was having a hard time with that because I was manually counting my calories and stuff. This web site does that for you and helps look at what exercise does for calories. So I signed up, and if you sign up please add me as your friend. My user name is luigigirl.
I also stopped walking. I have bone spurs in the bottom of my heels on both feet and they are so painful. My ankle feels like it is going to break at any moment. I can barely walk at all, much less go walking at night. I did get a new pair of shoes at a clearance sale at Big 5 ($80 shoes for $19) and because I had NO shoes, I spent the money and got them. They aren't the best shoes, but they do help a little. Hopefully I can get out and walk.
So with that, you have the update as to what is going on. Today is going good so far, diet wise. Hopefully I don't get derailed tonight. It is when I get off work and things are as scheduled that I have problems.
Till next time....
However, I am determined to get back on. I have mentioned in the past I am struggling with finances. Getting paid only once a month is so hard and my husbands unemployment doesn't do much except help pay for gas for the week. We are down to one car as my car broke down and we can't afford to get it fixed. So eating healthy costs money, so I have had to cut way back on buying certain things in the grocery store and just buy the bare necessities like Milk, Bread, Eggs, etc. I can't afford the higher priced fruits and the fish. I stocked up on tuna though! :)
So this makes trying to eat healthy a challenge, but I am trying. One of my very dear friends who I have know since I was 12 or 13 years old is struggling too. She got in touch with me and told me about this website called myfitnesspal.com
One of the most important things in weight loss is writing down everything you put in your mouth, and I was having a hard time with that because I was manually counting my calories and stuff. This web site does that for you and helps look at what exercise does for calories. So I signed up, and if you sign up please add me as your friend. My user name is luigigirl.
I also stopped walking. I have bone spurs in the bottom of my heels on both feet and they are so painful. My ankle feels like it is going to break at any moment. I can barely walk at all, much less go walking at night. I did get a new pair of shoes at a clearance sale at Big 5 ($80 shoes for $19) and because I had NO shoes, I spent the money and got them. They aren't the best shoes, but they do help a little. Hopefully I can get out and walk.
So with that, you have the update as to what is going on. Today is going good so far, diet wise. Hopefully I don't get derailed tonight. It is when I get off work and things are as scheduled that I have problems.
Till next time....
Friday, July 1, 2011
July 1st!
I haven't weighed in this week. I have been a little out of sorts with everything going on in my life. I have daycare problems, husband problems, financial problems, car problems...basically you name it, I have that problem. So I haven't been able to follow my diet as closely as I would like. There have been days where I have barely eaten 500 calories ALL DAY because I have been so stressed out. I haven't pigged out or anything, quite the opposite. I stopped eating for a few days and that is just as bad as pigging out.
So I put off weighing in until next week. However I want to share some successes with you.
Yesterday at work was the last day for several co-workers. Several cakes were brought in and these weren't just any ordinary cakes. They were fancy schmancy yummy looking cakes. People FLOCKED to them to get a slice. In fact, people from other departments were coming over to get a piece. BUT NOT ME! I stayed clear of the cake ALL DAY. I munched on some fresh strawberries that someone has brought in also. I was so proud of myself.
I also walk almost every single night. In fact, I look forward to it. I found this little hidden park that is by my house and I take my son out in his stroller every night. Now we head to the park. They have play structures that are perfect for him and because it is sort of hidden there rarely is anyone there. We both win...I get to exercise and he gets to play..and more often than not as we walk home he falls asleep and is out for the night.
So no weight update to report, but I do want to give a little praise to a friend of mine. I think she follows my blog. This person and I share a first name and we have known each other since Jr. High. She is also embarking on a weight loss journey and she recently hit a huge milestone, she is now under 200 lbs. I am so proud of her. I know it is not easy. So HL...a big congratualtions to you!
So I put off weighing in until next week. However I want to share some successes with you.
Yesterday at work was the last day for several co-workers. Several cakes were brought in and these weren't just any ordinary cakes. They were fancy schmancy yummy looking cakes. People FLOCKED to them to get a slice. In fact, people from other departments were coming over to get a piece. BUT NOT ME! I stayed clear of the cake ALL DAY. I munched on some fresh strawberries that someone has brought in also. I was so proud of myself.
I also walk almost every single night. In fact, I look forward to it. I found this little hidden park that is by my house and I take my son out in his stroller every night. Now we head to the park. They have play structures that are perfect for him and because it is sort of hidden there rarely is anyone there. We both win...I get to exercise and he gets to play..and more often than not as we walk home he falls asleep and is out for the night.
So no weight update to report, but I do want to give a little praise to a friend of mine. I think she follows my blog. This person and I share a first name and we have known each other since Jr. High. She is also embarking on a weight loss journey and she recently hit a huge milestone, she is now under 200 lbs. I am so proud of her. I know it is not easy. So HL...a big congratualtions to you!
Thursday, June 23, 2011
You Big Loser You...
So yesterday was Week Three weigh in. Before I tell you what happened I want to share a few things.
First off..yesterday was the first day I noticed my pants are starting to look a little baggy on me. I spent alot of time yesterday pulling my pants up because they were starting to fall. One of my coworkers noticed it and made a comment...
So I was asked "How much have you lost"? When I responded and told her how much her response to that was "You big loser you"! Hence the title of this post...
So how much weight have I lost? Well last week I lost another 4.3 lbs for a total of 10.3 lbs. I am still in the 230's but each week I am closer to getting out and can forever close that door.
I am amazed at myself. I can't believe that I am actually doing it...I am LOSING WEIGHT!
WOO HOO! I guess it is time to wear a belt because I am not buying any new clothes just yet. Not at least until 25 lbs has come off.
First off..yesterday was the first day I noticed my pants are starting to look a little baggy on me. I spent alot of time yesterday pulling my pants up because they were starting to fall. One of my coworkers noticed it and made a comment...
So I was asked "How much have you lost"? When I responded and told her how much her response to that was "You big loser you"! Hence the title of this post...
So how much weight have I lost? Well last week I lost another 4.3 lbs for a total of 10.3 lbs. I am still in the 230's but each week I am closer to getting out and can forever close that door.
I am amazed at myself. I can't believe that I am actually doing it...I am LOSING WEIGHT!
WOO HOO! I guess it is time to wear a belt because I am not buying any new clothes just yet. Not at least until 25 lbs has come off.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Loose Pants
Today is weigh in and I am pretty excited. I have noticed that when I put my pants on I don't have to suck it in to button them and they are starting to hang loose on me. Am I out of the 230's? I hope so!
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Challenges
Every person dieting experiences challenges along the way. Sometimes those challenges are in the form of a holiday that revolves around food. Sometime those challenges are hormonal when you feel like you need to eat an entire box of ice cream or devour the whole chocolate cake. Sometimes those challenges are called a husband or a wife. Whatever the challenges are you have to make the conscious decision of whether you are going to deal with the challenge or succumb to it.
This past week has been a very challenging one for me personally. I am dealing with some issues at home that are very difficult and my diet has been effected. However, I have to say I am proud of myself for how I dealt with it. I didn't go and get Mr. Ice Cream to help soothe my anguish away and Miss Cake wasn't even thought about. Instead, I went for a couple of walks, had a piece of watermelon, chase my son around the yard. Now I wasn't perfect in my choices, I did eat some things that weren't the best for me, but it could have been worse.
Life certainly has its ups and downs and so does a diet, but in the end you have to stick with it. You have to make choices of what food you put into your mouth. If you mess up, accept the guilt and move forward. Don't beat yourself up because you slipped a little.
When I was a kid growing up I had alot of cousins around who we would hang out with quite often. One of my cousins struggled with weight. While I haven't spoke with this person in many many years...in fact we went to the same high school together and yet never spoke to each other. People didn't even know we were related. Kind of sad when I look back on it, but anyway there was a saying that her Mom put onto her fridge that I think about all the time now.
"A Moment on the Lips, Forever on the Hips"
Think about that the next time you are craving that piece of cake or that box of ice cream. It really does put things into perspective.
Happy Dieting Everyone..tomorrow is weigh in for me.
This past week has been a very challenging one for me personally. I am dealing with some issues at home that are very difficult and my diet has been effected. However, I have to say I am proud of myself for how I dealt with it. I didn't go and get Mr. Ice Cream to help soothe my anguish away and Miss Cake wasn't even thought about. Instead, I went for a couple of walks, had a piece of watermelon, chase my son around the yard. Now I wasn't perfect in my choices, I did eat some things that weren't the best for me, but it could have been worse.
Life certainly has its ups and downs and so does a diet, but in the end you have to stick with it. You have to make choices of what food you put into your mouth. If you mess up, accept the guilt and move forward. Don't beat yourself up because you slipped a little.
When I was a kid growing up I had alot of cousins around who we would hang out with quite often. One of my cousins struggled with weight. While I haven't spoke with this person in many many years...in fact we went to the same high school together and yet never spoke to each other. People didn't even know we were related. Kind of sad when I look back on it, but anyway there was a saying that her Mom put onto her fridge that I think about all the time now.
"A Moment on the Lips, Forever on the Hips"
Think about that the next time you are craving that piece of cake or that box of ice cream. It really does put things into perspective.
Happy Dieting Everyone..tomorrow is weigh in for me.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Eye Opening Meal Information on Salads
Yesterday was my first day since my calorie intake has been reduced by the Dr. For the day I ended up with a total of 1270 eaten, 102.1 grams of protein, and 83 grams of carbs. Not bad, my carb to protein ratio was off a little so I probably should have had a piece of fruit and it woud have been right on target. Fresh rasberries are a great snack. Per 10 berries there is only 10 calories, 1.1 carbs, and .2 protein. They go good with cottage cheese.
I just had my lunch. I opted to walk across the street to our cafeteria and pick up a small salad from the salad bar. I carefully constucted my little salad picking things like fresh spinach, broccoli, cauliflower, beans, beets, peas..and I walked back to my desk. I also bought a fat-free packet of Kraft Ranch Dressing.
I log onto calorieking.com and start computing the calories of my salad breaking it down veggie by veggie. My little salad (and yes it was little because I used the little container versus the big container) came in at 203 calories. The biggest calorie offender was garbanzo beans.
Here is the breakdown of what was in my salad...
Garbanzo Beans 46 calories!!!! That was shocking to me. Next time I am skipping those! But seriously it is amazing how fast calories add up. This meal is actually a really good one. My calories for each mini meal are to be 150-200 and this meal is 203. It is hard to get detailed calorie counts for 1 piece of cauliflower or 2 peppers, so I rounded up. The protein to carb ratio is not even, but that is ok because as long as I end the day with the ratio being as close to even as possible..that is perfect. Right now in looking at everything I have planned to eat today while at work my ratio is 1.04, so right on track.
I love salads and before I started this diet I would load my bowl up with everything and then pile on the dressing. I am sure that my salads of the past were over 600 calories easy.
Well time to get back to work. Lots of stuff to do. Hopefully next time you are at the salad bar because you want something healthy you will think of me and really watch what you are putting on your plate. There are hidden calories everywhere.
Happy Friday!
I just had my lunch. I opted to walk across the street to our cafeteria and pick up a small salad from the salad bar. I carefully constucted my little salad picking things like fresh spinach, broccoli, cauliflower, beans, beets, peas..and I walked back to my desk. I also bought a fat-free packet of Kraft Ranch Dressing.
I log onto calorieking.com and start computing the calories of my salad breaking it down veggie by veggie. My little salad (and yes it was little because I used the little container versus the big container) came in at 203 calories. The biggest calorie offender was garbanzo beans.
Here is the breakdown of what was in my salad...
Veggie
c= Calories
p=Protein
ca=Carbs
- Spinach 20c 2.4p 1.2ca
- Romaine Let. 8c .6p .6ca
- Beets (3 slices) 19c .7p 3.4ca
- Brocolli (1 piece) 5c 1p 1ca
- Cauliflower (1 piece) 3c .3p .4ca
- Onion (1 Slice) 4c 0p .8ca
- Peas (1 spoonful) 11c 1p 1ca
- Bellpepper (1 sliver) 1c 0p .1ca
- Kidney Beans (1 spoonful) 14c .84p 1.4ca
- Garbanzo Beans (1 spoonful) 46c 2.4p 5.4ca
- Pepperocini (2 peppers) 8c 0p .5ca
- Mushrooms 4c .5p .4ca
- Fat Free Kraft Dressing 60c 0p 14ca
Garbanzo Beans 46 calories!!!! That was shocking to me. Next time I am skipping those! But seriously it is amazing how fast calories add up. This meal is actually a really good one. My calories for each mini meal are to be 150-200 and this meal is 203. It is hard to get detailed calorie counts for 1 piece of cauliflower or 2 peppers, so I rounded up. The protein to carb ratio is not even, but that is ok because as long as I end the day with the ratio being as close to even as possible..that is perfect. Right now in looking at everything I have planned to eat today while at work my ratio is 1.04, so right on track.
I love salads and before I started this diet I would load my bowl up with everything and then pile on the dressing. I am sure that my salads of the past were over 600 calories easy.
Well time to get back to work. Lots of stuff to do. Hopefully next time you are at the salad bar because you want something healthy you will think of me and really watch what you are putting on your plate. There are hidden calories everywhere.
Happy Friday!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Comments Left for Me
I can't figure out how to comment back so I just want you to know if you comment and I don't respond, I am not being rude...I don't know how! :)
Week Two Weigh In
Ok, well I went and weighed in yesterday. I didn't have a good feeling about it and I wasn't looking forward to it. I knew that this week was not going to be like last week. I get to the office and I slowly make my way to the scale. (Why does the scale look like the electric chair?) I step up and close my eyes. I hear the nurse say..."Well that is to be expected" and I open my eyes and I had gained 1 lb. WHAT THE F^%$! I knew I had a bad weekend, but after cutting out all soda, all junk food, and cooking 90% of my meals at home I GAINED a pound.
Here is how the conversation went with the nurse
Nurse "I can see it in your face you are upset"
Me "Wouldn't you be?"
Nurse "No, because at any given time of the day our weight fluctuates within a pound or so. You can weigh one thing in the morning and could be a pound lighter or a pound heavier at the end of the day"
Me "So what are you saying?"
Nurse "That you maintained your weight. We don't view this as a weight gain persay, but you maintained your weight for the week. After your initial drop last week which was pretty big it really isn't expected to have that kind of weight loss your second week"
Me "I understand, but I am not here to maintain my weight, I am here to lose. What needs to be done"
So she took my measurements and I have lost 2 inches off my waist and my BMI has gone down almost 2 points. So I started at a 43 BMI but am now almost 41. Still too high but going in the right direction. My calories have been cut even more now. I was doing 1700 calories and now have been bumped down to 1300 and I am taking my meds everyday.
So while I am not proud of what happened, I have put it behind me. Today is a new day, and I am still on track. I have started taking the stairs at work both up and down and I walk those stairs at least several times a day because of my job. I park farther away when I go to the store and stuff and will be walking at night everynight.
Let's hope this week is better
*SIGH*
Here is how the conversation went with the nurse
Nurse "I can see it in your face you are upset"
Me "Wouldn't you be?"
Nurse "No, because at any given time of the day our weight fluctuates within a pound or so. You can weigh one thing in the morning and could be a pound lighter or a pound heavier at the end of the day"
Me "So what are you saying?"
Nurse "That you maintained your weight. We don't view this as a weight gain persay, but you maintained your weight for the week. After your initial drop last week which was pretty big it really isn't expected to have that kind of weight loss your second week"
Me "I understand, but I am not here to maintain my weight, I am here to lose. What needs to be done"
So she took my measurements and I have lost 2 inches off my waist and my BMI has gone down almost 2 points. So I started at a 43 BMI but am now almost 41. Still too high but going in the right direction. My calories have been cut even more now. I was doing 1700 calories and now have been bumped down to 1300 and I am taking my meds everyday.
So while I am not proud of what happened, I have put it behind me. Today is a new day, and I am still on track. I have started taking the stairs at work both up and down and I walk those stairs at least several times a day because of my job. I park farther away when I go to the store and stuff and will be walking at night everynight.
Let's hope this week is better
*SIGH*
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Back on Track
Yesterday I got back on track and it felt so good. No guilt all day! Tomorrow is weigh in...looking forward to it!
Monday, June 13, 2011
Weekend Mouth full
So I have been chuggin' along. Eating every two hours, trying to create meals that are low in calories, high in protein, and filling. I haven't been walking as much this past week as I did last week, but I stay active. Chasing after Robert Jr. keeps me active. This weekend was a little tougher than last. Part of the problem was I didn't take my appetite suppressant. I didn't think I would need it. Note to self..They prescribe them for a reason. Okay, so Saturday went well. I didn't journal like I was supposed to but I did ok. Sunday....ugh. Let's see...Sunday started off good. I had a high protein breakfast, but it was downhill from there. We went to this Berries, Brew, and BBQ festival. We purchased our tickets a couple of weeks ago from Groupon (LOVE GROUPON) and with our purchase we got free beer/wine tickets.
So we get to the farm that is holding the festival and right away I smell BBQ. (Mind you on the way there I ate one of my protein bars thinking that would be enough). My two Roberts are hungry so we make our way to the BBQ stand. They have chicken and sausage. Of course my two guys don't want chicken, they want the sausage sandwhich. No big deal. I see they have a strawberry spinach salad. So $12 later, I walk away with a sausage sandwhich, a salad, and a Pepsi (NOT FOR ME! I am off soda).
So I am eating my salad, first off let me tell ya...GROSS. The little teenager they hired for the even doesn't realize that when you are putting dressing onto a salad especially one that had vinegar and oil in it you have to shake the bottle, so all I got was some nasty oil. BLECH!
They are eating their sausage sandwhich and I am sitting there eating my spinach. I smell BBQ in the air, and I got weak and I couldn't help it. I took several bites of their sandwhich. I didn't eat the bread, just the sausage and it was oh so good, but I knew not good for me.
Next stop was to the beer and wine section. Robert had a beer and I broke down and had a glass of Riesling wine. I am a sucker when it comes to that kind of wine...YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY! GUILT, GUILT, GUILT!
By this time my husband is kind of laughing at me because I am starting to freak out a little. He says it is ok to fall off the wagon as long as I get back on. I give him the look of death and tell him let's go pick strawberries.
Picking strawberries was fun and I got some exercise out of it so I was feeling a little better. We left not long after we finished picking the berries. On the way home Robert tells me he is still hungry, so we hit the Burger Basket and he got a cheeseburger and onion rings. I didn't order anything. I had one onion ring and the guilt was so overwhelming I couldn't handle anymore. So I went home and made one of my wraps with ham and cheese.
Back at home I was doing ok, but I was craving fruit. We had fresh strawberries, cantaloupe and mangos in the house. I had a mango and took some bites of strawberries and cantaloupe. I knew I was heading toward the point of no return. We were spring cleaning this weekend so I was busy, but my mind was on food. This is where had I taken my meds I would have been ok.
Dinnertime rolls around, my tummy is growling and my kitchen is spotless so I am not cooking anything. We end up at a this little cheap mexican restaurant...I ordered a chicken taco salad. I ate the chips and salsa, I had sour cream, and I blew my calories for the day. But I wasn't hungry anymore. LOL
So today I am back on the wagon. I just had my breakfast bar and shake. I am going to take my meds in a little bit and I will shut the door on yesterday and continue forward with today.
Weigh in is in three day....
So we get to the farm that is holding the festival and right away I smell BBQ. (Mind you on the way there I ate one of my protein bars thinking that would be enough). My two Roberts are hungry so we make our way to the BBQ stand. They have chicken and sausage. Of course my two guys don't want chicken, they want the sausage sandwhich. No big deal. I see they have a strawberry spinach salad. So $12 later, I walk away with a sausage sandwhich, a salad, and a Pepsi (NOT FOR ME! I am off soda).
So I am eating my salad, first off let me tell ya...GROSS. The little teenager they hired for the even doesn't realize that when you are putting dressing onto a salad especially one that had vinegar and oil in it you have to shake the bottle, so all I got was some nasty oil. BLECH!
They are eating their sausage sandwhich and I am sitting there eating my spinach. I smell BBQ in the air, and I got weak and I couldn't help it. I took several bites of their sandwhich. I didn't eat the bread, just the sausage and it was oh so good, but I knew not good for me.
Next stop was to the beer and wine section. Robert had a beer and I broke down and had a glass of Riesling wine. I am a sucker when it comes to that kind of wine...YUMMY YUMMY YUMMY! GUILT, GUILT, GUILT!
By this time my husband is kind of laughing at me because I am starting to freak out a little. He says it is ok to fall off the wagon as long as I get back on. I give him the look of death and tell him let's go pick strawberries.
Picking strawberries was fun and I got some exercise out of it so I was feeling a little better. We left not long after we finished picking the berries. On the way home Robert tells me he is still hungry, so we hit the Burger Basket and he got a cheeseburger and onion rings. I didn't order anything. I had one onion ring and the guilt was so overwhelming I couldn't handle anymore. So I went home and made one of my wraps with ham and cheese.
Back at home I was doing ok, but I was craving fruit. We had fresh strawberries, cantaloupe and mangos in the house. I had a mango and took some bites of strawberries and cantaloupe. I knew I was heading toward the point of no return. We were spring cleaning this weekend so I was busy, but my mind was on food. This is where had I taken my meds I would have been ok.
Dinnertime rolls around, my tummy is growling and my kitchen is spotless so I am not cooking anything. We end up at a this little cheap mexican restaurant...I ordered a chicken taco salad. I ate the chips and salsa, I had sour cream, and I blew my calories for the day. But I wasn't hungry anymore. LOL
So today I am back on the wagon. I just had my breakfast bar and shake. I am going to take my meds in a little bit and I will shut the door on yesterday and continue forward with today.
Weigh in is in three day....
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
HOLY MOLY!
So I went in and got weighed today. Today is actually one week since I signed up on the program and since I am having a horrible day due to some personal/relationship issues I thought I would get weighed today. My one week weight loss total was 7.1 lbs! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? HOLY MOLY! I am so excited. The nurse gave me a hug and a free B-12 shot. I am so excited. Nurse told me that first two weeks you see the biggest numbers drop and then I should level off, but I am officially out of the 240's and almost halfway out of the 230's. My official weigh in was 236.2! YAY!!
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Ch Ch Ch Changes.....
So it has been six days since starting my new life. What changes have I made? Well I have cut out ALL soda. Prior to this new life I was drinking at least a can of Pepsi or Moutain Dew a day usually in the afternoon at work. Then I would go home and pour a big ole glass of soda and drink one or two of those while eating dinner. I was just setting myself up for diabetes as all soda is just liquid sugar. No wonder my teeth are so bad too.
Ok, so no soda. What else? Fast Food is another thing I have cut out completly. By the time I drive home from work I pass at least 3 McDonalds, 2 Taco Bells, a Wendy's, and a Jack in the Box. Because of my poor eating habits, I was starving in the afternoons and tired. It was cheap and so easy to just pull into a drive thru, order up some grub (and a Large Soda of course) and chow on it on the way home. UGH...no wonder I am morbidly obese. I was setting such a bad example to my son too as he was also eating that crap because I was always giving him bites. NO MORE.
I graze all day on my high protein, low fat, low carb foods and make it a point to have a snack on hand. I bought these teriyaki sticks from the weight loss clinic and they are really yummy. They are beef and ostrich. Yes you read that right, ostrich. I can't taste the difference and they are high in protein so it gives me a full filling, so that is what I eat right before I leave for work. It keeps me satisfied until dinnertime.
My husband right now doesn't work so he takes me to work and picks me up so there is no stopping anywhere. It is straight home where I put my son in his highchair and give him a nutritious snack. He LOVES blueberries so he eats alot of those. I have also introduced him to celery and cream cheese (the light version) and while he hasn't figured out the celery yet, he loves to eat the cream cheese. Dinner is started by 6 or so whereas before it would be after 7 alot of times before I even comtemplated making dinner. After eating the fast food on the way home I wasn't hungry.
Eating too late is not good for my son, so we are done with dinner now by 7:30 at the latest and he gets a little bit to digest then it is bathtime, cuddle time, then down for the night. Since it stays light for so long now, we are having issues getting him down, but if he can be asleep by 9, I am a happy mom.
After Jr. goes down, my husband and I will sit and talk with each other about things going on or make plans for the next day. 9-10 is our time together. During this time I eat one more little mini meal usually something chocolate. Yes, I still eat chocolate. Last night we share some chocolate pudding with a little bit of cool-whip on it. One more glass of water before bed, and my day is done.
So some small changes have been made but I think these small changes were the biggest problem. I have an easier time getting out of bed in the morning and getting going. I am not ready to say I have more energy yet, but I can say I do FEEL a little better. Thursday afternoon is weigh in...I can hardly wait.
Ok, so no soda. What else? Fast Food is another thing I have cut out completly. By the time I drive home from work I pass at least 3 McDonalds, 2 Taco Bells, a Wendy's, and a Jack in the Box. Because of my poor eating habits, I was starving in the afternoons and tired. It was cheap and so easy to just pull into a drive thru, order up some grub (and a Large Soda of course) and chow on it on the way home. UGH...no wonder I am morbidly obese. I was setting such a bad example to my son too as he was also eating that crap because I was always giving him bites. NO MORE.
I graze all day on my high protein, low fat, low carb foods and make it a point to have a snack on hand. I bought these teriyaki sticks from the weight loss clinic and they are really yummy. They are beef and ostrich. Yes you read that right, ostrich. I can't taste the difference and they are high in protein so it gives me a full filling, so that is what I eat right before I leave for work. It keeps me satisfied until dinnertime.
My husband right now doesn't work so he takes me to work and picks me up so there is no stopping anywhere. It is straight home where I put my son in his highchair and give him a nutritious snack. He LOVES blueberries so he eats alot of those. I have also introduced him to celery and cream cheese (the light version) and while he hasn't figured out the celery yet, he loves to eat the cream cheese. Dinner is started by 6 or so whereas before it would be after 7 alot of times before I even comtemplated making dinner. After eating the fast food on the way home I wasn't hungry.
Eating too late is not good for my son, so we are done with dinner now by 7:30 at the latest and he gets a little bit to digest then it is bathtime, cuddle time, then down for the night. Since it stays light for so long now, we are having issues getting him down, but if he can be asleep by 9, I am a happy mom.
After Jr. goes down, my husband and I will sit and talk with each other about things going on or make plans for the next day. 9-10 is our time together. During this time I eat one more little mini meal usually something chocolate. Yes, I still eat chocolate. Last night we share some chocolate pudding with a little bit of cool-whip on it. One more glass of water before bed, and my day is done.
So some small changes have been made but I think these small changes were the biggest problem. I have an easier time getting out of bed in the morning and getting going. I am not ready to say I have more energy yet, but I can say I do FEEL a little better. Thursday afternoon is weigh in...I can hardly wait.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Weekend Update
On Saturday I woke up and went straight to the weight loss clinic. Both on Thursday and Friday by the time I got home I was starving and I had a headache and I know that feeling like that while trying to take care of Robert Jr. was not going to work. The Dr. at the clinic was so glad I came in. We looked at my food journal and made some adjustments and now things are better. Weather here in Oregon was just amazing this weekend. I had bought this little pool for Robert Jr. when I was still pregnant with him and we finally were able to break it out this weekend and use it. HE LOVED IT! We spent all weekend at home in our backyard just hanging out, taking pictures and we BBQ'd Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. I also took out the stroller and Robert Jr. and I went for a walk each night. I couldn't have asked for more.
This morning I had a physical. I need to know where my cholesterol and blood pressure is right now so I can compare next year. My primary Dr. was so happy that I have taken this step, so now they are on board along with the Doctors at the weight clinic and everyone is monitoring me. When I weighed in at the Dr.s office this morning the scale showed 240.6! WOOHOO! That is 2.7 lbs in 4 days. My official weigh in this week is Thursday...so I am hoping to once and for all be out of the 240's and vow to NEVER RETURN!
I also have to have a mammogram this year. I had one when I was 30 because of my family history and now it is time for another. Not looking forward to that, but again they are monitoring me close and if I ever feel anything in my breasts that just feels different they will schedule me for an ultrasound ASAP.
I just posted a bunch of pictures of Robert Jr. on my facebook page and hopefully soon I can start showing my face more and won't be so embarrased. I am staying focused and motivated and hope that soon I will notice a positive change in myself.
This morning I had a physical. I need to know where my cholesterol and blood pressure is right now so I can compare next year. My primary Dr. was so happy that I have taken this step, so now they are on board along with the Doctors at the weight clinic and everyone is monitoring me. When I weighed in at the Dr.s office this morning the scale showed 240.6! WOOHOO! That is 2.7 lbs in 4 days. My official weigh in this week is Thursday...so I am hoping to once and for all be out of the 240's and vow to NEVER RETURN!
I also have to have a mammogram this year. I had one when I was 30 because of my family history and now it is time for another. Not looking forward to that, but again they are monitoring me close and if I ever feel anything in my breasts that just feels different they will schedule me for an ultrasound ASAP.
I just posted a bunch of pictures of Robert Jr. on my facebook page and hopefully soon I can start showing my face more and won't be so embarrased. I am staying focused and motivated and hope that soon I will notice a positive change in myself.
Friday, June 3, 2011
BMI Update
So I was reading my paperwork last night and found that I had posted my BMI wrong. Instead of being almost 50 it is 42. Not better by any means, but if I am going to be honest with you and myself, I have to make sure I give the correct info. In 12 weeks I should be able to get that BMI down by 2 points. Granted having a BMI at 40 is no good, but having it go down shows progress.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
How was Day One?
Day One wasn't so bad really. I stayed focused and stayed on track. I did get a little hungry toward the end of the day and started to get a headache but I grabbed a handful of pistachio nuts and ate those instead of grabbing a soda or a cup of coffee.
Thanks to everyone for the support and words of encouragement. I got teary eyed reading them. Anyway..I really think this is something I can stick with. I even took Robert Jr. out for a walk tonight in between rain storms and it was so nice and relaxing. As I look at him I know that by being a healthy Mom he will learn good eating habits and hopefully not have to ever fight the "battle of the buldge".
Thanks to everyone for the support and words of encouragement. I got teary eyed reading them. Anyway..I really think this is something I can stick with. I even took Robert Jr. out for a walk tonight in between rain storms and it was so nice and relaxing. As I look at him I know that by being a healthy Mom he will learn good eating habits and hopefully not have to ever fight the "battle of the buldge".
Day One....
So I met with the medical team who is going to be helping me as I travel down this journey of weight loss. I am considered morbidly obese. Doesn't that just sound so gross? I mean, I am literally so fat that I am beyond obese. UGH! How disgusting. Oh well...hopefully if all goes well and I have the motivation and will power I can move out of that category. Anyway..here are my stats. I am 5ft 3in and I weigh..243lbs. My BMI is almost 50! HOLY MOLY! That is alot of fat on my small frame and I carry mostly in my tummy. The Dr. said alot of women carry it there. I am on a calorie restricted diet and today is Day 1. I planned my meals out for the day last night and on paper it doesn't look like much food. I have to eat every two hours to keep my body from going into hunger/starvation mode. That is going to a change as I am used to skipping breakfast, eating a huge lunch...and then again a big dinner with lots of soda in between. I have had no coffee this morning (just water) and I think I can easily cut out the soda's. I just took all my vitamins and appetite suppresant I can feel them kind of swirling around in my body. It will take some time to get used to, but my goal is to lose 100 lbs..and at an average of 2 lbs a week..it is going to take some time I know.
The biggest challenge is going to be cooking for my family and maintaining my diet. I can't expect my son and husband to eat less, but they are in for some changes too. No more McDonalds, Jack in the Crack, Taco Hell, or anything fast food.
Hopefully if I can get some followers for my blog I can get some recipes that are high in protein as that is the main focus of this weight loss program..PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!! I know there are many of us out there...will we find each other? Only time will tell. Until then...I am going to stay focused. One day at a time...
The biggest challenge is going to be cooking for my family and maintaining my diet. I can't expect my son and husband to eat less, but they are in for some changes too. No more McDonalds, Jack in the Crack, Taco Hell, or anything fast food.
Hopefully if I can get some followers for my blog I can get some recipes that are high in protein as that is the main focus of this weight loss program..PROTEIN PROTEIN PROTEIN!! I know there are many of us out there...will we find each other? Only time will tell. Until then...I am going to stay focused. One day at a time...
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
One Door Closes....Another One Waiting to Open
Today is the last day of my life as I now know it. I have high cholesterol, probably borderline diabetic, obese, unhappy, no energy, stressed out.......etc. I have a 15 month old son who along with my husband is the love of my life and my health worries me. I get winded just walking across the parking lot and I hate that I can only play with my son for a few minutes at a time. It is time to make a change...and tomorrow I have an appointment with a medical doctor to deal with my weight problem.
I have been overweight ever since I was a child. I remember being in Jr. High and High School and laying in bed crying because I was fat. I played sports (soccer and field hockey) but I could never lose the weight. I have tried every diet (Atkins, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, etc) and while I drop weight initially, it all comes back...and thensome. I don't want to have surgery but I NEED to do something. I don't want my son to be the one in his class with the "fat mommy"..so Monarch Medical Weight Loss...here I come.
My appointment with them is tomorrow morning. Tonight I am having a "last supper" of sorts with my family..after tonight no more prime rib, cheesy enchildadas, salads dripping with dressing....it is time for a new me to be born. As one of my favorite announcers says..."Let's get ready to rumble" or in my case LOSE THIS WEIGHT!
I have been overweight ever since I was a child. I remember being in Jr. High and High School and laying in bed crying because I was fat. I played sports (soccer and field hockey) but I could never lose the weight. I have tried every diet (Atkins, Jenny Craig, Weight Watchers, etc) and while I drop weight initially, it all comes back...and thensome. I don't want to have surgery but I NEED to do something. I don't want my son to be the one in his class with the "fat mommy"..so Monarch Medical Weight Loss...here I come.
My appointment with them is tomorrow morning. Tonight I am having a "last supper" of sorts with my family..after tonight no more prime rib, cheesy enchildadas, salads dripping with dressing....it is time for a new me to be born. As one of my favorite announcers says..."Let's get ready to rumble" or in my case LOSE THIS WEIGHT!
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