I just want to bury my head in the sand

When I started my diet I was so gung-ho. I dropped 16 pounds quickly and easily. I can't seem to get back into my routine, something always derails me. I can't continue to let this happen. I have invested too much time and energy and MONEY to go backwards.

I don't have a plan, I don't know what to do. I have new meds that I think I am a little scared to take, but tomorrow I plan on taking one. I mean I am under Dr. supervision, what the F am I scared about? Seriously, I am pathetic. One excuse after the other.

I am an accountant. I sit on my fat ass all day long manipulating numbers into a computer. I work on the 3rd floor of my building and I try to take the stairs as much as possible, I park far away and since I have to move my car every two hours or Mr. Parking Nazi will ticket me (again) I do get some exercise during the day.

Here is one of my problems, I have sever plantar fasciatis in BOTH my feet and I can barely walk sometimes. I go back to the foot doc next week and I am hoping some pain can be alleviated. In the meantime I just deal with it.

But how do I deal with my food choices? I am the only one I can blame for my failure this past weekend which has now stretched into Tuesday! I need to refocus, I need to stay motivated..I need to go back to doing all the stuff I was doing a couple of weeks ago.

I am only allowed 1320 calories a day..I get hungry, I get in moods. Maybe that is why I need to take my meds. I need a better mood.

OK, here is a promise to myself. Tomorrow morning I will get up, take my medicine, eat my healthy breakfast and start anew. I will not fail, I will not make excuses. I CAN and I WILL lose this weight.