Maintaining.....UGH

Well the one thing about being a woman is once a month we get bitchy, bloaty, and all around unhappy. That happened to me this weekend. I knew from past experience I wasn't going to post a loss for this week. As I was snuggled under the covers on Saturday morning I was trying to convince myself it would be a waste of time to go weigh in.

Here is how the good vs evil was playing out in my head...

Evil: "You aren't going to lose, you are bloated, just look at your feet"

Good: "It doesn't matter, you need your B-12 shot and you need to stay accountable"

Evil: "Just weigh in next week after this week is over and your body will be back to normal"

Good: "Get your ASS out of bed now and go weigh in"

So, I got up..took a quick shower, brushed my teeth...and headed out the door. The clinic opened at 9am and I was on the scale at 9:13.

Results...I didn't lose nor did I gain! AWESOME! Had my monthly visitor not appeared, I would have probably had a little bit of a loss.

I am glad GOOD won and I weighed in and got my shot.

I have some new followers to my blog and I want to welcome them. I still haven't figured out how to comment back to those who leave me comments..but I do want to recognize them and let them know I know they are here and let them know I am rooting for their success.

It is so nice to know that I am not alone on this weight loss journey. It is inspiring to see how others are doing and how they are handling their diets along with the stress that life throws at us. Keep up the good work everyone!

Monthly Check-Up

So today was my monthly check up with the clinic Dr. I have lost 5 inches in my waist, still down 15.7 pounds, have lost mostly body fat, and am almost out of the "morbid obesity" category.

I must say...

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF!!

First Weigh In (in almost a month)

Saturday morning I bit the bullet and went and weighed in. Remember I had fallen off the wagon and got back on and I hadn't weighed in since June 22nd. This clinic was really busy when I got there so I had to sit and wait, and as I was waiting the fear of what was to come when I stepped onto that scale was almost overwhelming. Finally the nurse called my name "Heather..let's get you weighed" I slowly rose to my feet and walked to the weigh room. She closed the door and I stood there frozen as the nurse typed in my name in the computer. "It's been a while since you were last here hasn't it" the nurse said. I explained to her I had kind of fallen off. She explained that it happens alot but just by getting up, brushing yourself off, and getting back into the clinic was a step in the right direction.

She then looked at what I was wearing (jeans, t-shirt, tennis shoes) and asked me if I weighed in jeans before. I told her I was usually in sweats and she said that if I wanted to I could take them off because jeans can have an affect on the scale. Not really wanting to weigh in in my underwear I declined but did take off my shoes.

I took a deep breath, stepped up onto the scale and closed my eyes. I only opened them when I heard the nurse say "WOW" Thinking I had put on all the weight I had lost and thensome I opened my eyes and looked at the number. 227.6!! HOLY MOLY! I had lost another 8.6 pounds for a total of almost 16 pounds lost. I was floored. I was in such shock that the nurse asked me if I was alright. I told her I couldn't believe it and even asked her if the scale was working properly. She laughed at me and told me to smile that I had achieved a +5% loss of my initial body weight and I was going to get a goody pack on my next visit.

Honestly I don't feel like I have lost 16 pounds and to me I don't look like I have lost 16 pounds. My pants are loose and I can put my jeans on straight from the dryer without having to suck it in or lay on the bed (YOU ALL KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT) but I just think I felt I would "feel" it more. She told me to hang in there that I would.

So with that...I have shut the door on the 240's and I shut the door on the 230's. I am now working on getting out of the 220's, and I look forward to the day I say good-bye to the 200's and can SLAM that door shut.

Thank you all for the kind words and support..till next time Stay Focused! XOXO

Falling off the wagon....

So when you notice that someone isn't posting to their blog like they used to, especially about weight loss it is most likely because they fell off the wagon. That is what happened to me. I fell off and I fell hard. I haven't weighed in, I haven't been walking, etc. While I have reasons for doing all this, every reason is just an excuse.

However, I am determined to get back on. I have mentioned in the past I am struggling with finances. Getting paid only once a month is so hard and my husbands unemployment doesn't do much except help pay for gas for the week. We are down to one car as my car broke down and we can't afford to get it fixed. So eating healthy costs money, so I have had to cut way back on buying certain things in the grocery store and just buy the bare necessities like Milk, Bread, Eggs, etc. I can't afford the higher priced fruits and the fish. I stocked up on tuna though! :)

So this makes trying to eat healthy a challenge, but I am trying. One of my very dear friends who I have know since I was 12 or 13 years old is struggling too. She got in touch with me and told me about this website called myfitnesspal.com

One of the most important things in weight loss is writing down everything you put in your mouth, and I was having a hard time with that because I was manually counting my calories and stuff. This web site does that for you and helps look at what exercise does for calories. So I signed up, and if you sign up please add me as your friend. My user name is luigigirl.

I also stopped walking. I have bone spurs in the bottom of my heels on both feet and they are so painful. My ankle feels like it is going to break at any moment. I can barely walk at all, much less go walking at night. I did get a new pair of shoes at a clearance sale at Big 5 ($80 shoes for $19) and because I had NO shoes, I spent the money and got them. They aren't the best shoes, but they do help a little. Hopefully I can get out and walk.

So with that, you have the update as to what is going on. Today is going good so far, diet wise. Hopefully I don't get derailed tonight. It is when I get off work and things are as scheduled that I have problems.

Till next time....

July 1st!

I haven't weighed in this week. I have been a little out of sorts with everything going on in my life. I have daycare problems, husband problems, financial problems, car problems...basically you name it, I have that problem. So I haven't been able to follow my diet as closely as I would like. There have been days where I have barely eaten 500 calories ALL DAY because I have been so stressed out. I haven't pigged out or anything, quite the opposite. I stopped eating for a few days and that is just as bad as pigging out.

So I put off weighing in until next week. However I want to share some successes with you.

Yesterday at work was the last day for several co-workers. Several cakes were brought in and these weren't just any ordinary cakes. They were fancy schmancy yummy looking cakes. People FLOCKED to them to get a slice. In fact, people from other departments were coming over to get a piece. BUT NOT ME! I stayed clear of the cake ALL DAY. I munched on some fresh strawberries that someone has brought in also. I was so proud of myself.

I also walk almost every single night. In fact, I look forward to it. I found this little hidden park that is by my house and I take my son out in his stroller every night. Now we head to the park. They have play structures that are perfect for him and because it is sort of hidden there rarely is anyone there. We both win...I get to exercise and he gets to play..and more often than not as we walk home he falls asleep and is out for the night.

So no weight update to report, but I do want to give a little praise to a friend of mine. I think she follows my blog. This person and I share a first name and we have known each other since Jr. High. She is also embarking on a weight loss journey and she recently hit a huge milestone, she is now under 200 lbs. I am so proud of her. I know it is not easy. So HL...a big congratualtions to you!